I just shared with a friend that my brain is all over the place right now, and it’s only Monday. Oh boy. I’ve had back-to-back crazy, insane weeks. There just hasn’t been that moment to collect my thoughts and get some air, regroup. I told my friend it’s almost like I need someone to slap my face or stick my head under water and tell me to snap out of it. I even made it to the gym on Saturday for a hardcore workout thinking that would make things all better, and that didn’t even do it. Shoot.
So the two major things bothering me:
1. Jackson has had the runs/squirts for THREE WEEKS now. I have no idea what’s going on other than we are flying through about 13+ diapers a day. Two weeks into this he’d get sick for 24 hours get the WORST diaper rash and then be done. Then it hit two days later. This happened three times UNTIL last Saturday. It’s been going on for a week straight. NO breaks. I’m at my whit’s end trying to figure out what is going on. I've tried everything. BRAT diet, probiotics, limiting dairy. I'm taking him in today though. Trying to avoid the doctor, but I think it's time. Jackson is acting fairly normal, however I noticed he gets super irritable out of the blue.
2. My dear dear dear dear friend has brain cancer. As in the friend I worked with for two years. The friend who made my garter at our wedding (my something blue). The friend we drink home brew with every year at their annual party. The friend I told I was pregnant with Jackson before ANYONE else because we were riding to a baby shower together AND SHE JUST KNEW. It's not like I'm a good liar either. Let’s say it’s the kind of brain cancer you do not want. I’m crushed. And with all this poop, I can’t get over to see her. I can't even imagine. I can't. Why is this happening????
I’m just bumming out. Trying to make sense of things and trying super hard to let go. Trying to figure out how to fix things, when I know I can't fix it all.
Anyway, our week in pictures!
|Jackson reporting for duty! Even with all this pooping, Jackson seems to be his playful self.|
|My parents came up and saved us! We couldn't take Jackson to daycare because of all the poop. THANK YOU PAPA AND Grandma!|
|Of course we were SAD when my parents left:( Come back soon!|
|Lots of baths for this guy. We've tried oatmeal baths too to get rid of the diaper rash. Poor guy!|
|Having fun with dad! Dad was a CHAMP at changing diapers. SO NICE to have Karl around!!!|
|We HAD to get out. I couldn't take it anymore. I brought lots of diapers just in case, but we MADE IT! WHEW!|
|Fall colors ARE BEAUTIFUL. The sun came out for a couple hours and we did what we could to make it outside. Then the rain fell most of the weekend. Boo.|
Praying for a better week and that the doctor has some insight for us. See you next week!!!