So let’s say we are sitting by a fire with coffee in our hands, talking.
I would have black coffee with either heavy whipping cream (most natural state, of course!) Or topped with whipped coconut milk in the BPA free cans. You know, the kind you have to scrape the hard stuff off the top and then whip that up with cinnamon and a little vanilla extract! (Yum!!!). |
| Coffee Break |
Of course I’d be so happy to see you and ask you a million
questions and then I’d listen to you. But when it comes to my turn, this is
what I’d share…
I’d tell you that I have been enjoying my parents visit this
past week. That I was counting down the minutes for my mom to walk through the
door on Christmas so I could see her and hug her. I've been praying so hard for her and am so thankful that her results came
back fairly decent. But now I am extra observant with both my parents. I see
how they are getting older. That they are a little slower, they tire faster and
easier, and my sweet energetic boys wear them out. And part of me starts to feel
sad because I know things won’t always be this way forever, so I try my hardest to be forgiving, more mindful and remind myself to enjoy every minute. I’m not ready for these times to change just
yet…
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| Shopping fun! Maybe someday I'll start finding time to get make up on! |
I’d tell you that Jackson has been waking with nightmares
for two weeks. He wakes sobbing and it breaks my heart. When I ask what’s going
on, he tells me, “nofin”. I’m not sure what’s going on. The boys have both
survived an awful week of horrible colds and coughing through the night (and then gave it to me! I can't wait to get a full night's sleep), but
these nightmares are killer. Karl has been crawling in bed with Jackson to keep
him calm. I’m grateful we decided to go with the full bed versus the twin. I
find myself thanking God for bringing Karl into my life a lot lately. He sure was worth the
wait.
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| Love this kid!!! |
I’d tell you that I’m a little worried about how Jackson is
handling being a big brother. He’s amazing and caring and sweet, but he sure
misses all the attention. And he has this obsession with Nathan’s hands and poking them, pinching
them, or shoving Nathan’s fingers in his mouth and trying to bite them with his
lips. “It’s not biting if I use my lips, mom,” he tells me. He has no problem
throwing big pillows at Nathan when I turn away or ripping every single toy out
of Nathan’s hand or plowing him over with toys or his own body. When Nathan
crawls in my lap, Jackson has to. When I play with Nathan, Jackson has to come
over and jump all over me. When I spend
too much time with Nathan, Jackson becomes whiny and clingy. Hoping this is
just a phase and I’m giving equal amounts of attention to both. Praying a lot about this one and giving this one to God.
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| Loves his brother's hands |
I’d tell you that I still have about 30-some Christmas cards in my bag that I never sent out. I just can’t seem to get to them. And I lost my drive and desire to
send them out. This year I was able to address a few cards at a time every couple days and Nathan
would take them and drool on them and Jackson would scribble on them. As soon
as I’d get busy sealing, the boys would need me for something and the pile
would just sit. So I apologize if you’re still waiting on your card.
I'd tell you that Christmas was really great but it came and went so fast that it almost felt like any other day. Of course the morning of was magical and so much fun, but last year I was on maternity leave with Nathan and I felt like I was listening to Christmas music from the day he was born in October to the day I went back to work in January. There were lots of fires in the fireplace, snuggles and hot chocolate with Rumchata. This year it felt like we were running all over the place and I was catching my breath half the time or trying to fight off whatever bug the boys caught. Time sure goes FAST! We hosted Christmas this year and let me tell you...that is WORK! But I love family!
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| Just a few extra steps on Christmas! |
I’d tell you that I went shopping with my mom on Sunday and
it felt AMAZING. It’s been a long time since we have gone “fun” shopping. It’s
either been Costco or the grocery store for us when we get together. It felt like I came alive walking
around and trying on clothes. I remembered how much fun it is and better yet
when I actually get to try on something and it fits! I felt like I started to get
some of my style back! I'm getting there. Soon I'll introduce jewelry back into my life again.
I’d tell you that my online Health and Fitness business is
doing really well. That my heart and soul is in this business and I have HUGE visions
and dreams for myself and for my team, and I know deep down I will go far with this business because I have belief and passion for what it’s about – helping others on their journey. I hit two star
diamond last week and have opened a second Business Center! I also have been invited to Leadership Training in
California. I WANT to go. I NEED to go... AND here begins the guilt of leaving my
boys. I feel it growing. I feel like I’m putting people out because I
need childcare. Will my boys miss me? Will Karl be annoyed by me? I HAVE to be
strong. I NEED to do this FOR ME.
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| I DID IT!!!!!!!!! I set a goal and DID IT and now I know I can do so much more! |
I’d tell you that my entire world has changed because of
coaching and the time I’ve spent working on myself. I always considered myself
a pretty happy, bubbly person and that I didn’t need to work on myself. But I
do! I am worth that much! I am worthy of feeling and being healthy and happy
and setting HUGE SCARY goals and going after them. I have a tendency of putting my needs
last or catering to everyone else, so you can imagine how AWESOME it felt to set
a goal of doing two workout programs from start to finish and then completing
them with great results!!! I felt like a new woman! I have always struggled
with saying “no” to others or worrying what others might think of me, but I’m
REALLY starting to see a big change in my confidence and how I carry myself. I
have grown more in this year than a lot of years combined. I have read and
listened to a LOT of personal development too. I just went through my list earlier
today and I have read over 30 books this year alone. Before that, I had read one book in 2 years. One.
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| Just some of the books I've read this year! |
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| 21-day Fix and 21-Day Fix Extreme changed my body! |
I’d tell you that I haven’t even started Nathan’s First Year
baby book and haven’t touched Jackson’s age 2-3 photo book. I’m so behind in
this stuff and at the same time, I’m OK with this because at least I’m getting
the photos in somewhat organized folders, so that has to count for something. I
figure that I can keep myself busy with this when the boys are in college and I’m
struggling with empty nesters syndrome.
And after all that, I’d take a sip of coffee and sink back
in my chair and feel the fire on my face and dream of heading to the beachJ
