Halfway there! – 20 Weeks
You're at the halfway mark — congratulations! Your baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now and measures about 6 1/2 inches from head to bottom or 10 inches from head to heel (about the size of a banana). You may wonder why you're seeing two length measurements this week. Until 20 weeks of pregnancy, babies are measured from the top of their head to their "rump." That's because their legs are curled up against their torso during the first half of pregnancy, so they're hard to measure. Starting next week, you'll see only the head-to-heel measurement. Your baby is swallowing more these days, which is good practice for his digestive system. He's also producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. This gooey substance will accumulate in his bowels, and you'll see it in his first soiled diaper (although some babies pass meconium in the womb or during delivery).
Well, that first half of pregnancy flew by. I can only
imagine how this last half is going to go!
Perhaps at WARP SPEED? Summer always goes fast!
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| 20 Weeks Today!!!! |
I was finally able to get a solid good night’s sleep
last night. YES! Today I feel SO much more like myself. I tend to feel great
when I can get good sleep (one reason I’m scared for baby #2. I know what’s
coming! Oh, the dreaded zombie phase.). I think my body basically shut down on
me last night and was like, “OK! That’s it, lady! We’re crashing.”
Ahhh. Felt so great. I was still up three times to pee, but
for the most part I can do that rather quick and in the dark! Mama has skills!
Dreams
Holy smokes. Let me tell you about the dream I had two nights
ago. Around 3:30 in the morning my grandpa visited me in my dream. I know he’s
not feeling the best and he is in congestive heart failure right now (my dad went through this same thing earlier this year). I’ve been
worried about him – praying as much as I can, but knowing that he is 87 years
old. Trusting God has a plan for him and all of us because we love this man
DEARLY. He tells me all the time that he’s lived his life and he’s ready
whenever, but then I get mad at him. I like him in MY life!!!
Anyway, in my dream I was in my grandparent’s basement
coloring with a red crayon. I heard footsteps. Then I saw my grandpa’s feet in
his favorite slippers at the top of the steps. He shuffled down like he always
does. Then he walked toward me in his favorite red flannel shirt. He looked
over the picture I was coloring. Then looked at me with a sad look. “Christie.
I’m not doing so well. It’s not looking good for me.”
“I know, grandpa.”
“First I wanted to see if you were thinking of me.” He
looked at the picture I was coloring. There on the page was a photo of his face
and my grandma’s that I had sketched. He smiled. “Remember, I told you I would
come back and harass you when I’m gone? Don’t forget that!”
I could barely see
the whites of his eyes. (He always
teased us growing up that he’s from China since he has such squinty eyes.)
Then he started to walk away. I screamed. “Grandpa! Don’t
go. I love you so very very very much.”
He kept walking. And then the BRIGHTEST LIGHT in the whole
world shined in the distance. I felt my eyes pinching together even as I slept. It was
weird. SO BRIGHT.
The light was beautiful. SO PEACEFUL. SO WARM. SO inviting.
He kept walking. And then disappeared. It turned into the most incredible
sunset and then was gone.
I woke up crying. I was shaking to the core. I had to wake
up Karl. I could have sworn my grandpa had passed away. I wanted to call him,
my parents, my brother. SOMEONE. But it was 3:36 in the morning.
Instead I was
up for good for the rest of the day, tossing and turning, contemplating life
and death and love and the relationships we build during our lifetime.
In a weird way I felt like God was talking to me through the
dream. Earlier that day I had called my mom in a panic. I was worn out and
couldn’t find the motivation to pack ONE more box. I had a headache. I was all
anxious. I was worrying about my grandpa. I had bought appliances earlier for
the new house and had ten minutes to decide in order to get the best discount and
wasn’t sure I thought them through. Did I make a mistake? I mean, that’s a lot
of money! Then Karl went to Sears and found a couple of them cheaper. So I knew
I’d have to cancel the order, but had to wait until the company opened the next
day and knew I had a full day at work. When would I find the time? Moving day
is approaching and there is still so much stuff everywhere. How will I get it
all done in time? I hadn’t gone grocery shopping for the week. I didn’t have
dinner cooking and Karl was on his way home with Jackson.
All minor things but totally big enough to consume my life
at the moment.
Then that dream came. It put everything in perspective. WHO
CARES about appliances and boxes and moving or the perfect meal. It’s all going
to get done. It ALWAYS does. What matters is the people we surround ourselves
with. LOVE. TIME together. JOY. Treasuring ALL the moments – as in the ones
that eventually change and go away. The ones we can’t always hold on to as much
as we WANT to.
The dream just made me realize once again how truly precious
life is. How LUCKY we are to be here and have the chance to LIVE our lives to
the fullest. NOBODY is telling us we can’t make the best of our days. We get to make the best of it all! Things
ALWAYS get in the way. Stress is ALWAYS at the front door, trying to creep in. But
the ones we love won’t always be there. It’s not like God decides, “OK, this
one is going to get Cancer today. This one is going to get in a car accident.” I can't imagine he does that.
It’s life. UNPREDICTABLE. It's all about our choices. Other’s choices. The environment we live in. Everything mixed together. With good, bad must
follow. It sucks. ESPECIALLY when bad things happen to GOOD people.
But I still feel like there is no way God would make us fall
in love with so many people only to have them disappear from our life for good.
They are somewhere beautiful waiting for us – where there isn’t "bad" or a clock
managing our days – only pure amazing. And we will go there too. That seems
weird to me. I can’t imagine taking my last breath, but some day that will
happen. I guess when my time comes and I lay there, I won’t be thinking about
those stupid appliances or the big move into our new house. I’ll be thinking of
all those I love and all those amazing things I did that made me who I am. And
right now I get the chance to make the choice how I'm going to live. That is SUCH a GIFT!!!!!!!!
Oh yeah…getting back to the dream. I waited until 6 to text
my aunt and she said she hadn’t heard anything, so all must be OK. We have a
motto: “No news is good news.” So I went to my dentist appointment and called
my grandpa as soon as I got out. My grandma picked up and giggled when I told
her I had a horrible dream about my grandpa. She handed the phone to my
grandpa. My heart JUMPED when I heard his voice, even more when he laughed.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh! I got another chance to tell him how much I loved him. PERFECT.
Cravings
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Fruits & Veggies
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I have been thinking a lot about Punch Pizza and
Seafood!
Fitness
I was doing really good at getting to the gym twice a week
and walking at least once over one lunch break and then spending most of the
weekend walking and playing at parks and running around outside with Jackson.
Our weekends are pretty busy with adventures and activities but for the most
part, I’m trying to get our house together for the BIG MOVE. This has been consuming me a lot.
After 20 weeks I remember getting the WORST leg and foot cramps with Jackson. Let me tell you…I can FEEL them starting. I’m praying they
don’t strike again, but I have a feeling… They are NUTS and SO painful!
Jackson and Baby
Jackson doesn’t completely know what’s going on, but he does
understand there is a baby in my belly. He will sometimes crawl on my lap, rest
his head on my belly and say, “Hi, baby!” It’s pretty cute. We also look
through his photo albums and all the photos of me and daddy and my growing
belly. We explain that was him in there. He’s talking SO much lately. He is
ADORABLE.
Weight
160 lbs. Yep, I’m up about 15 lbs now. I get frustrated from
time to time, but I know we’re eating clean, I’m still exercising and
moving the best I can so I have a feeling it won’t be horrible to take off the
weight again. And I’ll be chasing TWO kids around. I’ll be active! So yeah, I
went to the pool with my bikini on. BOOM!
20-Week Ultrasound
We go next week! We’re getting a Level II to check out baby’s
heart! We want to be safe because of the heart defects on my side. We are NOT
finding out what we’re having. The surprise is just TOO much fun!
Life is too much fun! Get out there and LIVE IT!
