Travel Often

“I see my path, but I don’t know where it leads. Not knowing where I’m going is what inspires me to travel it.” — Rosalia de Castro

Love Deeply, but Laugh Along the Way

"Happiness is only real when shared." - Jon Krakauer, Into the Wild

View Marriage as an Adventure

"Love is a flower which turns into fruit at marriage." ~Finnish Proverb

Fuel your body with GOOD (It's the only one you get)

He who has health has hope; and he who has hope has everything. - Arabian Proverb

Open your Soul to Motherhood

A Grand Adventure is About to Begin - Winnie the Pooh

A New Kind of Love is Born

Mothers hold their children's hands for a short while, but their hearts forever.

Saturday, June 16, 2012

Two Months Old - week 8

week 8 postpartum

Jackson is officially two months old!
I'm two months old!


We had an interesting week. Jackson went from sleeping 5-7 hours every night to going back to sleeping 3-4 every night this past week. Not going to lie, I'm pretty tired. Last night was the first night he slept a solid seven hours in a row. YES!!!

When he was only sleeping 3-4, it was hard for me to pump since I usually do it right after that first feeding in the morning. The last thing I want to do at 4 a.m., after being up for 45 minutes, is pump. So I found myself going back to bed instead. And now I'm worried I don't have enough milk stored up. Annoying. See what going back to work does to a person? And as I type this I realize I didn't put the storage bag right on the pump, so I have milk spilling on my shorts. Nice.

Jackson and I finished our four week Baby and Me class on Thursday where Jackson graduated at 11 pounds and 6.6 ounces. It makes me feel a lot better. He's gaining. He's growing.

It's nice to know he's getting plenty of food and I have nothing to worry about.

The teacher had a pediatrician come in at the end of class and I totally got my $25 worth! He was very outspoken about the bottle and how it's so easy to overfeed your baby and how we usually give them more via the bottle and then their stomach stretches. So we need to be careful about that. He made sure to remind us how obesity is HUGE in America and it usually starts when we're babies. I think that's what happened last week. He was overfed by the bottle because I wasn't there and I think he got too much. But, that's a lesson learned for me too. All this week all he wanted to was to keep eating that same amount. Finally Karl gave him a bottle and he was back to only eating 3.5 ounces.

I asked the doctor everything under the sun from bee allergies to babies being in swimming pools to me working out and the effects of that on milk production to making sure he's getting enough food to different color poops to GERD to baby gas. That was awesome because he answered all of them and gave me that piece of mind I needed.

And just as Jackson graduated that class, we started a ECFE class in Bloomington on Wednesdays. There are 12 other mothers and babies in class. We start off by playing for 30 minutes and then we sing songs and then we talk about concerns we have. I love it so far. My friend Connie from church introduced us to this class and gifted it to us. She is AWESOME. I have to miss the last class though because I'll be back working.

Big milestones this week...

Jackson found his thumb! He's been sucking away at it when he does find it. It's not total perfection - sometimes his whole fist makes contact with his mouth and sometimes it's a bit awkward with his thumb in mouth all goofy, but it's totally cute to see!
Jackson found his thumb!


There are definitely more adorable sounds coming out of Jackson every day and I can't wait to hear that first giggle.

I'm trying to get Jackson to take naps in his pack n play versus the swing. During the ECFE class, the teacher told us researchers are now finding those swings are messing with baby's backs now. I worry about this because the swing has been our saving grace. Jackson falls asleep instantly when we put him in this for naps during the day. When he's lying flat on the pack n play, he sleeps maybe 10 minutes and then he's back up exploring or crying. Not sure what to do about this.
Jackson gets distracted in his Pack N Play


We're going to the St. Francis Baby Fair at the Shakopee High School today! I hear it's pretty sweet. I'm excited to go. I really want to go to the session on introducing solids into baby's life.

Jackson gets baptized tomorrow and we're pretty excited about that. He gets to wear a dress Karl wore when he was baptized. Fingers are crossed there are no accidents in it.

Four more weeks until I go back to work...


Monday, June 11, 2012

Tortellini Primavera

Tortellini Primavera
serves 2
recipe found in Cooking for 2


1 cup frozen cheese tortellini
2 tablespoons olive oil, divided
3 tablespoons prepared pesto, divided
1/4 pound boneless skinless chicken breast, cut into 1-inch cubes
1 cup cut fresh asparagus (1-inch pieces)
1/4 cup each chopped sweet yellow pepper, green pepper and sweet onion
1/4 cup sliced fresh carrot
1/4 cup fresh or frozen snow peas
1/4 cup fresh broccoli florets
1/4 teaspoon garlic powder
1/8 teaspoon salt
1/8 teaspoon pepper
2 plum tomatoes, cut into wedges
3 tablespoons grated Parmesan cheese, divided
1 tablespoon water

Cook tortellini according to package directions. Meanwhile, in a small bowl, combine 4-1/2 teaspoons oil and 4-1/2 teaspoons pesto. Add chicken and toss to coat. Let stand at room temperature while cooking the vegetables.

In a large skillet, saute the asparagus, peppers, onion, carrot, peas, broccoli, garlic powder, salt and pepper in remaining oil until crisp-tender. Drain tortellini and return to the saucepan; add vegetable mixture.

In the same skillet, cook and stir the chicken for 4-5 minutes or until juices run clear. Stir in the tomatoes, 2 tablespoons Parmesan cheese, water and remaining pesto; simmer for 2 minutes. Add tortellini mixture; toss. Sprinkle with remaining Parmesan cheese. Yield: 2 servings.

My take: Super easy to make and pretty healthy with all those veggies. Will be making again.

Karl's reaction: "I like this. I knew I needed to eat more veggies so this is good!"

Asian Turkey Lettuce Cups

Asian Turkey Lettuce Cups
serves 1 (so I made enough for four servings)
recipe found in Women's Health, June 2012
Healthy Asian Meal


4 oz ground lean turkey
1/2 cup white mushrooms chopped
1 tsp minced garlic
1/4 cup shelled and cooked edamame
2 Boston lettuce leaves
2 Tbsp sliced scallion

In a nonstick skillet coated with cooking spray, saute first three ingredients for 5 minutes. Add edamame, scoop mix onto lettuce, top with scallion, and wrap up. Drizzle with save and serve with slaw on the side.

Sauce
1/2 Tbsp hoisin sauce
1 tsp low-sodium soy sauce
1/2 tsp rice vinegar

Asian Slaw
1/2 cup shredded red cabbage and green cabbage
1/4 cup sliced jicama
1/4 cup grated carrot
1 tsp olive oil
1/2 tsp rice vinegar

Total: 329 calories

My take: This meal was really easy to make and tastes really good!

Karl's reaction: "I'm very surprised at how good these tastes! Yum, babe."

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Jackson is Eight Weeks - week eight

week eight (postpartum)

I can't believe we have an eight-week old. Time is going by SO fast. I wish I could freeze it. This time I've had with Jackson has been so wonderful and great.

Some big milestones for Jackson (besides graduating to a size 1 diaper):

He is big-time smiling and is seconds away from letting out a laugh. I don't want to miss it when that joyful giggle comes out.
All smiles for daddy!
Hello! It's me...Jackson!


He's able to push himself up and hold his neck up really great!

Learned this "tummy time" hold in our Baby and Me class


Working on pushing himself up
Video of Jackson pushing himself up - http://youtu.be/VfsMd2EVPzg

He loves to watch daddy read him books. And dad likes to laugh at all the books.
His favorite book so far - nice and colorful
Video of dad reading book to Jackson - http://youtu.be/x_yc7gPDFqA

We've heard a couple of "coo's" and other sweet baby noises come out of Jackson's mouth. They are enough to make us smile and forget about any worries we have with the outside world.
He's our sweet lil dude...i.e. "bupkiss"

Jackson slept for a solid six hours, six and a half hours and now seven hours the other night! YAY!
Daddy loves when Jackson sleeps a lot!


He brings so much joy to others wherever we go!
Jackson - 8 weeks old at 10lbs 11.7 ounces


Life is so sweet!


Friday, June 8, 2012

Where Can I Find the Parenthood Instruction Manual - week 7

week 7 (postpartum)

It drives me crazy not knowing what I'm doing half the time as a mom and all the second guessing. Why can't I just trust myself???

I find myself asking if I should be doing something else than what I have been doing? If I'm doing something wrong? If there is a better way I don't know about? Where is the instruction manual??? I find myself asking Karl a lot...should I be doing this? Should I do this instead? Like he knows better than I do, or something.

I know parenthood is trial and error but like I said on Facebook, even though it seems like a lot of the decisions I'm making are small ones, I'm still gambling with my sleep. And that is huge to me.
I'm really going to miss this cuddle time throughout the day!


So hear me out....
Wednesday night I was able to get out of the house and play volleyball. Yay mom! Karl was going to feed Jackson a bottle since we need to do that a few times a week so Jackson gets used to it once he goes to daycare. He was last fed at 7:00 p.m. Karl planned on feeding him around 8:30/9:00. That didn't really go as planned. I get home and Jackson is sleeping. It's quarter to ten. Karl said that Jackson was pretty fussy and tried everything to calm him down. Just as he was about to give him a bottle, he passed out. So the bottle sat in the fridge.

OK...change of plans. (Note: this tends to happen a lot.)

We both tried to wake him, going against all the rules I've heard. "NEVER WAKE A SLEEPING BABY." But I knew if he didn't eat, he'd be getting up in the middle of the night for sure, and I'd maybe...maybe get 3-4 hours of sleep. I try to avoid that scenario at all costs whatever it takes.

Jackson was NOT waking for us.
Our cutie pie!


I knew I needed to pump, and this voice kept telling me to do it, but I kept thinking Jackson would wake up eventually and I would just feed him. I kept asking Karl, "Do you think I should pump? What would you think would happen if I pumped? Maybe I'll wait to pump... Do you think I should wait? What if he wakes up? Should I really pump?"

Who is this annoying person who can't make quick decisions anymore???? ME!!!

All the worrying kept me up until I drifted off into a partial sleep and woke up around 1:20 in the morning with lightening bolts shooting through my chest. I looked over in the bassinet and Jackson was sound asleep. No movement. But I knew Jackson HAD to be waking up soon, but I didn't know when and I knew I needed to pump. So I went through the cycle again. Should I pump? Should I wake him? Will he really sleep through the entire night? Will I run out of milk if he needs to eat within the next hour or even less? Or should I wait to pump? My chest told me otherwise. So I pumped.

I crawled back into bed just as Jackson started to stir. Crap! My mind began racing. Will he wake up too soon and I won't be able to nurse him? Will I have enough food for him to eat? Why didn't Karl feed him at 8:30? Why didn't I pump when I got home from volleyball? Why did I just pump now???

Then I became mad at the world.

Around 2:30 Jackson began to really stir and whimper. He had gone 7.5 hours without eating and my chest was feeling rather empty. There wouldn't be enough in there to feed him, would there??? So Karl suggests I feed him the bottle so the feeding is over quick and I can get some sleep. I find myself scratching my head wondering why I'm getting a bottle ready when the whole point is for Karl to bond with Jackson and for me to catch up on sleep. So here I am downstairs trying to figure out how to operate the bottle warmer and failing miserably. I run upstairs to give Jackson warm milk and run out. He guzzled down 5 ounces in 5 minutes flat and was STILL crying. So what did I do? I nursed.
Beach anyone?


And then I got real mad at myself. That was just a whole waste of time, sleep and milk.
STUPID!!

Around 3:30 I crawled back into bed. Ahhh, once my head hits the pillow, I sleep, right? WRONG.

Jackson was well rested and wasn't totally feeling up for another round of sleep. So we went back and forth with his pacifier and coaxing him. Eventually at 4:30, he was back sleeping. Then up again at 6 a.m.

Let's just say Thursday was a rough day! Lesson learned.

As with anything in life, go with my gut instinct!!! And if you make a mistake, learn from it but dust yourself off and try again.
Peek-a-Boo!



Friday, June 1, 2012

A Week of Smiles and Other Stuff - Week 6

week 6

This week has been a complete joy to be Jackson's mom. I feel like things are really starting to come together and I'm loving life so much. I feel like I look around and everything looks clearer...happier...fuller. Jackson's face lights up every time he sees me or I wake him, change him, hold him. And then he throws out this amazing smile. My heart melts into a pile of mush. Nothing seems to matter in my life except that sweet, genuine, pure smile! The best part is when he smiles at Karl and Karl lets out his contagious laugh and Jackson just stares and stares. I love how happy he makes Karl.

My smiling little boy

Dad and Jackson time!


Jackson has also become more observant. When we put him in his swing, he now recognizes there's a little mobile hanging over him. And he smiles, again!!!

Jackson has discovered objects around him


It seems like we're getting more of a routine. I feel like I'm starting to finally understand Jackson. When he gets fussy, I know if it's been 3 or 4 hours since his last feeding, he's probably hungry and I need to change his diaper first. If that's not it, he has an air bubble and he needs to be burped. If that's still not working, he wants his pacifier and to be swaddled. Still not and it's been over an hour since he finished eating? Then he's tired and we set him in his swing and he's out. So nuts. I'm worried I'm not going to know these cues anymore when I go back to work because I won't be around him as much. That kills me. However, I also have been better at taking each day as it is and accepting that no day is going to be the same. Jackson always throws surprises at us. Just when I think I have the hang of something, Jackson throws a curve ball. I know this will continue to happen and I really have to take things day by day or else I get very overwhelmed.

Jackson is sleeping anywhere from 4 to 6 hours a night. He naps in 3 to 4 hour shifts a few times throughout the day too. (I love him.) I was freaking out that he wouldn't sleep at night because he was sleeping so much through the day. Every time I go to sleep I wonder, "Will this be the night I only get two hours of sleep? Will the good sleep all end and will we be back at square one?"

Will this fear ever go away?
Working at getting that tummy time in!


I started working from home this week. I actually welcome the break from mom duty as Jackson sleeps so I can get some work done. I get to be creative and feel challenged and stay connected to adults. I like! When he goes down for his nap, I'm jumping on my laptop and trying to get as much done as I can for work. So far, so good. Yet, this kind of messes with visitors coming over since I only have a short amount of time to get everything in! And naps for me sometimes win over visiting right now. Sorry!

I'm not going to lie, this balancing takes some work. I have learned I just need to work faster at the house duties. I find myself doing dishes, reading recipes, starting laundry, emailing, paying bills, cleaning in super record time and all at once so I have time to give ALL my attention to Jackson when he's awake and ALL my attention to work when Jackson's sleeping and after I get my work around the house done. Phew. I was still able to fit in a nap yesterday too.

So I tried bringing up the idea of hiring a cleaning service when we were on a walk. Karl shot that down again. Darn it!!! So it's time to develop a responsibilities list so we can share duties from now on!! Or else, I'm going to have to start saving in a separate fund... Hmmm. Something to think about.

Karl came down with a pretty bad cold last Friday and was worried he'd pass it on to Jackson and me. As of yesterday, I came down with the same sore throat and have been taking all the vitamins and liquids I can to try and prevent myself from getting as bad as Karl was. I do NOT want to pass this on to Jackson. I'm hoping my breast milk keeps him immune. Please, oh, please. If he even gets a taste of this sore throat, he'll be crying 24/7. It cannot happen!!!
Jackson has found his hands and arms and sucks!


We gave Jackson some Little Remedies Gas Drops and they seemed to help with his gas. We were dealing with painful gas a lot week 5. After the gas drops, he didn't seem as fussy, but that could also be in my head?? I just hate seeing him cry in pain and wiggle those little legs of his. We figured out he drinks about four ounces of milk at a time. AND he still spits up about 1 or 2 ounces of it. I don't know how to fix this. I was able to weigh him at my Baby and Me class yesterday and he was 10.67 lbs!!!!!!!!! YAY!!! He's growing a little at a time at least! So I'm not going to worry about him spitting up. I think it's just normal for some babies.

Speaking of my Baby and Me class, I love it!!! I've been able to connect with a bunch of new moms in Shakopee and learn some cool calming techniques for Jackson. We sat on exercise balls with our babies to calm them. Karl tried it out last night and it worked like a charm. And we also set our babies down for massages. I think Jackson would've enjoyed it more if he hadn't soaked his entire outfit in pee!

Last weekend was wonderful because it was just us at home and a longer weekend. We were able to get a lot of stuff done (and get some extra sleep) - especially me because I had Karl spending time with Jackson. I even filed all my bills and put the pile of Jackson's keepsake stuff into some cute boxes! We love visitors, but it was SO nice to not have to worry about when someone was coming over and getting Jackson fed, ready, clean up around the house, etc., etc. We were able to nap and just relax. We also went to a local winery!! I really hope for more weekends like these! Things are starting to feel more normal.

What's new with me?
I had my six-week check up. I had to get the tetanus shot because whooping cough is going around and the nurse said I do NOT want Jackson to get this. Otherwise, all looks well and I got the go-ahead to work out. So guess what I did?

I met with my trainer (he was soooo sweet and gave me a free session). He held back on the intensity of the workouts, but I was pretty sore the next day. I'm excited to get in the gym a couple times a week to get my body back! I felt like I took a happy pill after working out again. I started thinking I could eat anything and everything because I'm breastfeeding. Wrong. I started gaining ... Oops.

I also played volleyball on Wednesday!! As in sand volleyball and it FELT SO GOOD to play!!! YAY!!! I'm back!!!

I still have major fears of going places because of Jackson's feeding schedule. I still have a hard time breastfeeding in public. I don't want to because I worry it makes everyone around me uncomfortable. So I feed Jackson at home, wait until he wets his diaper, change him and hurry out of the house and run errands in under 2 hours. Then make it back home so I'm ready to feed him when he wakes. Will this ever go away?? When will I be more open to feeding him in public? I know there is the bottle option, but when I pump, I want that liquid gold to follow him to day care. If I'm around him, I want to feed him. So yes, I need to get over this!

I also have major mom guilt. I know I'm supposed to put myself first, but it's soooo hard! I'm trying to do more "me" things, like volleyball and hitting up the gym but Jackson is ALWAYS in the back of my mind when I'm not around him. Should I be doing something with him? Should I be playing with him instead? I'm so worried how it'll be when I go back to work. I'll get maybe 2 hours with him after I get home. That's it. What if I want to play volleyball...then I won't get to see him at all for an entire day!! But I can't just not play volleyball. I find myself not wanting to do a lot of the things I used to do because I don't want to leave Jackson. Will this ever change??



Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Keeping Track of Baby Milestones - Week 5

I'm trying to think of a cool (and easy) way to keep track of all Jackson's milestones. I haven't completely figured it out yet and it kind of makes me feel like a bad mom, especially since I haven't been great at video taping Jackson as he grows or I haven't been able to organize the hundreds of pictures we've already taken. I'm usually so good at this stuff but part of me is still walking around in a fog. We planned on video taping the birth (as in setting the camera next to my shoulders), but the nurses changed in and out right as I was about to push. And that was a little more important. With that said, the record button never was pushed. I'm bummed about it, but I also don't see how I could ever forget that moment Jackson came out. Even with all the drugs.
Our sweet little Jackson James Koester at Week 5


We're at week five. I can't even believe it. Right now I have piles of keepsakes that we need to put in something (I can't make out the top of my dresser anymore), but I don't know what to put this stuff in. I like the idea of scanning in a lot of the stuff and creating a cool digital scrapbook, but there are some things we just can't scan in. I started writing in a cool journal a friend got us at our first shower. And I can add pictures to some of the pages. But the pockets aren't big enough for all the stuff we have and I hate my handwriting. And then there is this blog. Sometimes I feel like it's a bit more about me...and I guess that's OK since it's my blog. But I also want to write about some of Jackson's milestones in here too...

So here goes nothing, starting from the beginning...

Weeks 1 - 4
Hey buddy! We're just getting to know each other this first month. I feel like you've known me for a lot longer than I've known you. After all, you have nine months on me. Yet, I know you're mine. I can see me in your eyes when I pick you up. When I kiss your cheeks. When you make silly faces. When I breastfeed you.

Speaking of breastfeeding....boy...we had our issues. You'd get so mad and frustrated because you couldn't figure out how to latch on right. And you'd cry. And cry. Sometimes it would be for 15 minutes, sometimes longer before you could even start eating. And then I'd get so frustrated. And I'd start sweating and getting nervous and mad. My neck hurt! My back felt like it was going to snap in half. When no one was looking, I'd cry. I couldn't show anyone that I was struggling so much. Because everyone else seemed to breeze through it. What was wrong with me?? Luckily I realized I wasn't alone.

It killed me to know you were hungry and I couldn't feed you immediately. But I needed you to figure out how to eat correctly. I wanted us to click right off the bat. But, oh man...I really wanted to quit. I so wanted to throw in the towel, but I was determined to make breast feeding work. I'd tell myself..."just get through this week, and you can quit next week." Week five and we're still at it.
You're not crying AS MUCH during your baths! OK...just a little....


You weren't gaining enough weight and I had to take you to see the pediatrician a lot. (A LOT.) And the lactation consultant. (A lot.) But finally....FINALLY...you started gaining. You and I worked through it and as I look at you week five, I'm so glad I pushed through. Even as sore as I still get from time to time. We're like a little team. This is our special time together. Our quiet time. I stare at you and watch your eyes as you're eating and take the time to look up at me. Then as you look around the room, your eyes look like you're in REM sleep and that you're so in love, so content...so happy. And I wonder what you're thinking. As weird as this sounds, this moment is the best time of my day now because you have taught me TO SLOW DOWN and enjoy the moments that count. I was such a freak with rushing through everything and crossing off things from my list. The moment that counts is being with YOU. I have no idea why I think chores and errands and other stuff is so much more important sometimes.

You don't do a whole lot during the day right now and I wonder if I'm being a good mom. Should I be doing more?? I keep asking your dad if I should bring out all the toys we got at all the baby showers. But all you want to do is sleep or look around. I tried handing you a rattle and some other vibrating toys, but you just like to sleep in your swing during the day and in your bassinet at night. Or you just want to be in my arms for hours at a time. The old me would find something like this annoying or boring, but I don't at all. I find this time to be the most rewarding. You need me. And I need you. And so we just look at each other and before I know it, three hours have passed and all we have done is stared at one another. But I feel like I've made a difference. Like I accomplished something huge. Like I have a purpose.

I tried reading a few books to you. I sometimes cry when reading them. I know...mom's a little emotional, and very tired these days. You weren't very interested in looking at any of the pages in the books, but you'd stare at me and recognize my voice. Then you'd fall asleep. So sometimes when I'm not by your books, I read my Health magazines to you or read you all my friend's Facebook posts.
How can I not stare at you????


You love our stairway. Your dad calls it "The Stairway of Mystery" and lowers his voice every time he takes you up and down it. He kind of sounds like Count Dracula when he says this. We can't figure out if you stop crying because we're going up and down stairs and I worked out a bit on the stair stepper when you were in my belly or because you see spirits in the "Stairway of Mystery"? All we know is you LOVE it. I remember the first week at 3:25 in the morning I marched up the stairs for at least 35 minutes straight just to keep you quiet.

You also love to be wrapped tightly (swaddled) in a blanket at night. I can set you in your bassinet and even with wide eyes, you fall asleep. And somehow, by morning, you've found a way during the night to free your arms. How? Your dad thinks you're going to be the next Harry Houdini. We were actually going to name you Harrison and call you Harry for short (after your great grandpa)...until your dad reminded me that all the telemarketers call us The Keesters. Harry Keester would NOT fly in school. Jackson it was. You can thank us later.

During week four, you discovered your stuffed sock monkey when we were changing you. And you stared at it for quite awhile, like you have just discovered something HUGE. It's a simple sock with orange yarn for hair. And you love it. That was pretty cool to see.

Your dad also gave you your first "big" bottle during week four. We had to supplement the first two weeks with one ounce of milk, but your dad and then your Grandpa and Grandma Powalish gave you your first bottle full of three ounces of milk. I guess you drank it in under seven minutes. Sometimes you can keep it down, sometimes you spit it up. You're having issues with spitting up lately and you're making me nervous. You projectile spit up all over the bathroom floor the other morning. You love to hit our red couch too. I hope this is normal....

I kind of find myself getting sad when you drink from the bottle. I know. Make up your mind, mom!! I couldn't wait for the bottle, and now I find myself bumming out about it. I miss our special time together when you are bottle fed, but it is a nice little break and a time for you and your dad to bond.

Week Five
Let the smiling begin. I've noticed in the mornings you are very happy. And you've been smiling more and more. Talk about MELT MY HEART. I can't wait until you do this more and more because you are ADORABLE when you smile. Who am I kidding? You are adorable ALL THE TIME.
I love you SOOO much!!!

It's so strange. You go to sleep at night and I can't WAIT to see you in the morning because you're so cute. Every time you wake up from your naps, I get so eager to pick you up and hold you. I don't even care if you have a full diaper.
You slept five and a half hours straight THREE nights in a row. However, for the last two or three hours before you wake up you whine and moan and whimper. You are a VERY loud sleeper. You went a total of seven hours without eating. So I know even more sleep is coming. Mommy is getting more rest and feeling more like herself (which she needs). She was going a little cray there on your dad! For those who think a baby will "fix" their relationship or marriage are VERY wrong. I have decided if a couple can get through the first month after having a baby, they can get through most anything. You're so VERY vulnerable and MUST communicate to survive!!! For your information, your dad and I have made it through....just a few tears shed here and there. OK...a LOT of tears. The lack of sleep will play tricks on your head. A sense of humor is a must.

I'm able to set you in your swing or on your boppy or in your rock and play when you are awake and you're OK being in there. You look around to discover more. This allows mom to do a load of laundry and empty the dishwasher or eat breakfast!
You like your NUK every once in awhile


We're making progress and are having a lot of fun together. You're a pretty awesome baby. And I find myself thanking God for you a lot.

We're going to take a Baby and Me class together in Shakopee so we can get out of the house more and meet some other new moms and babies. More to come on that!